Evil Is Inevitable

Yesterday I got a new tattoo. My sixth, to be exact.

Here's why:
Three semesters ago, I took my first philosophy class. This is where I first learned about the problem of evil. I mean, I've always known about evil, and I've always had an opinion on it, but I was never truly aware of my feelings. I was also never confident in my beliefs of a higher power. I knew there had to be something, but I never knew what. I wasn't raised with the Good Book, I wasn't brought to church every Sunday. I never practiced any religion. And honestly, I'm more than grateful for that. I've been able to develop morals, love, and faith in my own way. I've been able to view the world openly, through my own eyes.

We had to write a paper on this issue. While writing my paper, this is one of the phrases I used.
The next semester, I took another philosophy class. I couldn't get enough. In this one, we were able to write a paper about any topic that were passionate about. I ended up writing a 2200+ word paper on this subject. If anyone is interested in reading it, you can find the link HERE!

Evil is an everyday occurrence in life. We can't avoid it. Bad things happen, all of the time. This is the way it has to happen. According to the philosopher Leibniz, this is the best of all possible worlds.

Through the bad, through the negative, through all of the hard times we endure, we learn. We persevere. We become better people. Through evil, we come to embrace the good even more. How can we appreciate the good things in our life without knowing the worst?

You don't have to agree with me, as with any of my other posts. But this is what gets me through every day. This is what I've learned, from everything that I've been through. I embrace everything that life brings to me. Because I know the best is yet to come.

I didn't go into great detail in this post, because I do have a lot to say. So I would suggest that you read the paper I wrote. Understand my ideas. Understand me. See where I'm coming from. Even if you don't agree, have an open mind.

My philosophy

<Tawny

Embracing the Nap

I've always despised naps.

I find them to be a waste of precious time.

I always wake up feeling worse or more tired than I did before the nap.

That's why, I usually just drink coffee to get through the day. But this post isn't about coffee.

It's about naps.

Recently, naps have been my savior.

They're actually starting to grow on me.

In fact, I'll be taking one as soon as I return to my room after work.

I can't wait.



Who am I?!

I'm Not A Feminist But...

...don't you Dare challenge my femininity!

Last Wednesday, I packed up all of my gaming consoles except for my Xbox. I need that. But away went my SNES, my PS2, my Gamecube, and all of their games. (Also my dvd player, but that doesn't matter.)

Anyway, on Thursday, some random guy, we'll call him Jake, came by to visit. I've never met him, but he was someone else's guest. Who cares. I bring friends over all of the time, nothing out of the norm. I was busy doing my own thing, minding my own business, and getting ready for a class that I had to leave for within the next 20 minutes. If you saw my twitter last Thursday, you kind of know what happened, but I'm going to go into a bit more detail.

Here's why:
I want Everyone to know how much of a Dick, that guy was, and how Terrible he made me feel, because all but two people, understood my side. So, I want more on my side.

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I was making me some grilled cheeses to scarf down before class. "Jake" is looking around the suite, which is pretty bare since taking down most of the decor and packing a lot of things, and sees my Xbox. 

He asks, in a semi-snarky, mostly just questioning tone, "Who's xbox is that?"

All of the roommates point to me. as he turns around to face me I say, "Yeah, it's mine."

Here's where I get Ticked.

"Why do you have an Xbox?" he asked in a condescending tone.
"To play games?" I replied in confused manner. I didn't quite know how to respond to him.
"Really??" Jake was still acting pretty condescending towards me. This is where I began to take offense.
"Why else would I have an xbox?" I figured it would be an obvious answer, because...well, it's a gaming console. That's kind of why they were invented? But he didn't see it that way.
"Well I don't know, some girls/people buy them to watch DVDs or Netflix," he said as if it would uncover the 'real' reason why I got it.

Now, before I continue. Let my explain some things for you. I received my Xbox as a gift from my parents for Christmas this past holiday. It was a bundle that came with the Skylanders game and whatever. I have been wanting an xbox for a while now. Just never got around to purchasing one.
Xbox bundle: $200ish? If I wanted to have something to watch DVDs with, I'm not going to spend $200 for a gloridied DVD player. Plus, I already had a PS2, and an actual DVD player, that I could have used for that reason.
Gold membership: $60 for 12 months. Um, hello? If I wanted to have a device just to play Netflix? I could use the laptop that I already have and hook it up via HDMI cable, which, btw, I did before I had my xbox. I'm not going to drop $260+ just for that.
No. I'm going to play Video Games.

Anyway, to continue:
"Why would I buy an xbox just to watch movies on when I can play DVDs with my PS2, or my actual DVD Player?! "
"You have a PS2?" Jake was still being an ass.
"Yeah, I just packed up it up yesterday. Want me to get them," I asked angrily.
"Oh, well, you're not a real gamer anyway unles you have the old stuff," Jake said in a snooty, stuck-up, I'm better than you voice.
"What do you mean," I inquired. Now I was even more offended and just plain dumb-founded.
"Well, like, you don't know anything unless you have a Super Nintendo or..." This is where I had enough. I cut him off.
"I Have a SNES. And a PS2. And a Gamecube. Let me take you to my house! I can show you everything else we've got!" I was mad.
"Sounds like you're trying to challenge me."
"Are you KIDDING me? You're the one challenging me by saying I don't know anything about 'gaming'!" 

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At this point. I gave up. I don't need to defend my person. I sure as Hell don't need people questioning my person either. Yes. I am a girl. Yes, I like to play video games. No. I'm not the best, but I have fun. That's just how I was raised. Sorry, if that throws you off, I really don't give a shit.

What I Should've done at that point, was kick him out. I had every right to. But alas, I'm not a dick. So, after my grilled chesses finished cooking, I shoveled them into my mouth and left. Later that night though. I told the person who invited him, that he was no longer welcome in the suite. At least while I'm still around. Hecky naw! I don't need to deal with idiots.

Fuck you "Jake".

You don't respect me. I sure as heck ain't respecting your privacy. Just be happy I changed your name.

<3 Tawny